"beauty" of maths

sigh~i turned everything into mess again today.........

forced myself to finish revise one chapter in linear algebra.....
and it's freaky damn super hyper confusing and put me on FIRE now~

in maths it's all bout proving and proving, or solve problem.....
what's fun of it is u can solve the problem that had given, but hw if u cant solve it even u've squeeze out all the brain juice out?
 ...........it's tiring, helpless, fade up, upset, and turns everything wonderful into bloody hell.....end up can only put all the angers on myself........

wat the f**k......nothings better than "dulan" to describe my feeling now.....

@#%^*@*%#*##@**%#&!!!!!

Sadness.....T_T

my little baby~ow~

please wake up~wake up wake up~

at least let me knw u are still alive babe~

cant live witout u my babe~

without u i cant take picture, cant hear my fav songs whenever i like to~

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ok, im nt cisin till act insane at here....
wat i mentioned above is bout my 11mnths 5days baby~N85 handphone!!!
my multifunction hp~now become a dead corpse inside my closet.........
im just too clumsy, too forgotten, too..........haei......just too careless till let it drop in2 the SEA together with me and now, my babe is so weak to stay conscious, i hav no idea hw to save it back even i tried to expose it under the sun rite after tat and dried it with the hairdryer.............

im just waiting the time cum and will send it to singapore hospital since it still under warranty........

hopefully it can awake from death.............

miracle.....miracle........looking for miracle now.................(praying hard)

nonsense-ing~

yes im lazy now.......
lazy to do anything since i'd fnshed my midterm during sept.......
just hate this kind of feeling.....
lost my concentrations at all in studies now....
so much things r waiting me ahead to finish it.....
and still, not realli hav my state of mind to do all of them....
and final is coming...(3 more weeksT_T)....

and what had just happened recently has realli frustrated me.....
well,everything just about how i manage my time........
and i admit that im realli damn sucks in my time management.....
no matter for my study, relationship, friends or family......

ぜんぜん よくないです(not good at all)～！！

Today was my japanese oral test....
How was it overall? Well, I've done it very bad...+_+

Instead of saying that i was panic, i rather say i'm not enough in preparing myself for the test( or i'm too confident with my ability?)

Sigh~.......

oh ya, been disappeared from my blog for more than a century~hope that there will be more updates on my blog in future~will try hard to fill in more contents to my blog^.^

Summer More More Tea~

It's been a long looong time i never update my blog after the Bitchology post...yeah...so lazy yet not much time to update my blog, haha....

Just went for a Redang trip last weekends(4D2N) wit my boyfriend(ehem ehem...erm....erm.....he is mr. Alson Lum....can call him Alson...or mr.Lum, kekeke).....but it's considered as 2D2N, because we departed frm SG on thursday nite by bus, till Shah Alam jetty it's friday 7AM, and sunday hav been dragged to beach at 5.30AM!! just to wait the earliest boat to go bec Shah Alam jetty n then wait bus bec to SG.....Zzzzz.....but still, the island trip was best~^.^

*reached Shah Alam jetty(7AM...^yawning)~~

*ready to depart to Redang island(9AM)

*after an hour journey, here we are, Pulau Redang~!! *


*the greenish-blue sea~^.^*

When reach the beach, we need to transfer to another small boat to our resort, n being transfer here, transfer there, i started to feel dizzy and yes, i experienced seasick~ @.@....vomited for 2 times on the boat, the second time was during scuba dive, the wave just makes me feel unwell.....bluerk~@.@*****

The resort we stayed is called Coral resort, its a relax n simple designed chalet n surrounded by the nature living...the first time i saw a big iguana in front of me....make sure tat ur room's door is locked properly, else u might gonna sleep wit these stuffs during midnight~ew......

*cutie squirrel with my Rocky strawberry biscuit stick*

*summer summer*

*the legendary More More Tea hse*

*Capten Jack is bec~!*

well, it's feel relaxing being at redang, we were having 2 scuba diving there, and the underwater creatures were so beautiful n Woaw~Furthermore, the people there all quite friendly even they dunnw u, and we hav a chance to knw a diver from Myanmar who works at the resort, his name pronounced as Aw(i don't knw the exact spelling)....he was so kind n willing to spend his time after his working time just to guide us to watch those underwater livings like the big eel, stonefish, baby shark, and he oso showed me the baby turtles~^.^....very thanx to him....according to him, the turtles usually come to beach for eggs hatching during monsoon, and ther are ard 100++ baby turtles will be hatched out...but due to the baby turtles are the favourite of baby shark, so at the end only left 2 or 3 baby turtles remain alive....poor things....so for those turtle eggs lovers, please think for the poor baby turtles before u eat them.....save the nature, save our Mother Earth kay......but i like turtles eggs still......kekekekekeke........

At the nite before we leave, i get a Blue Laguna cocktail while enjoying the live band singing...but the taste nt as nice as its name, taste weird.....nt gud to try...expensive somemore....#.#

*get bec to Shah Alam jetty on the nex morning, and this the Chinatown of Kuala Terengganu, no difference wit Melaka chinatown*

~an unforgetable n nice trip I ever had~lalalalala~

P/s: Oh ya, Potato Tan, i asked a stuff there, Pulau Perhentian just an hour journey form Redang island, n she said August dun hav Monsoon lei, actually is the most calming season n gt alot tourists from Europe cos Europe Skul Holiday~!!!

无言……

Im a BITCH~?

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yeah~I AM......cheerssss~

"Just because I have my standards, they think i'm a BITCH"

-by Diana Ross

HApPy MoTher's Day to all the mothers around the world~

To my mummy~I love u always~muaks~!

A Lazy day......堕落的一天

->wake up at noon.......

->then having brunch.....

->online, check mail, facebook a while......

->watch tv.........

->take some nap........

->at nite follw daddy to attend his fren's daughter wedding dinner.....

->2nd round go hav some drinks n fun wit my frens at pub........

->reach hum at about 3am......

a day witout learning n revisions~
im so proud wit myself.........

start from sunday till tuesday......i sure die gao gao.........+_+

God bless me.....Amitaba......Amen...........

忍~

4 more papers to go for next week.....

忍~忍~忍~
我忍~......

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mon: Financial Management(9am), Japanese(2pm)
tues: Object Oriented Programming(9am)
wed: Student Organization Management(KPO)(9am)
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did u see that?can anybody tell me wat the relationship of those subjects above(except Jap) wit my course "Maths with Econ"...?why shud i take programming since ther are TWO BIG words stated ther "MATHS & ECON".....and so far, i just had took 2 papers which i think is 100% relevant to my course which r Maths II and Macroeconomics I....dengz +_+....

忍~
我忍~

P/s: starting to countdown for the coming days of my wonderful 2months skul break~muahahahahaha......->Singapore->Genting,->Redang/Langkawi~*weeeeeee**

至我亲爱的朋友~

收到一封十分有意义的电邮，希望能和我心爱的朋友分享分享~

* 学会 沉默
有时候，你被人误解，你不想争辩，所以选择沈默。本来就不是所有的人都得了解你，因此你认为不必对全世界喊话。却也有时候，你被最爱的人误解，你难过到不想争辩，也只有选择沈默。全世界都可以不懂你，但他应该懂，若他竟然不能懂，还有什么话可说?生命中往往有连舒伯特都无言以对的时刻，毕竟不是所有的是非都能条列清楚，甚至可能根本没有真正的是与非。那么，不想说话，就不说吧，在多说无益的时候，也许沈默就是最好的解释。

* 至少 平静
在你跌入人生谷底的时候，你身旁所有的人都告诉你：要坚强，而且要快乐。坚强是绝对需要的，但是快乐? 在这种情形下，恐怕是太为难你了。毕竟，谁能在跌得头破血流的时候还觉得高兴？但是至少可以做到平静。平静地看待这件事，平静地把其他该处理的事处理好。平静，没有快乐，也没有不快乐。

* 学会弯腰
这会是我意外的收获 和别人发生意见上的纷歧，甚造成言语上的冲突，所以你闷闷不乐，因为你觉得都是别人恶意。别再耿耿于怀了，回家去擦地板吧。拎一块抹布，弯下腰，双膝着地，把你面前这张地板的每个角落来回擦拭干净。然后重新省思自己在那场冲突，所说过的每一句话。现在，你发现自己其实也有不对的地方了，是不是?你渐渐心平气和了，是不是?有时候你必须学习弯腰，因为这个动作可以让你谦卑。劳动身体的同时，你也擦亮了自己的心绪。而且，你还拥有了一张光洁的地板呢。这是你的第二个收获。

* 不要想 如果 当初
你说，人生是一条有无限多岔口的长路，永远在不停地做选择。如果只是选择吃炒饭，影响似乎不大，但选择读什么科系、做什么工作、结婚或不结婚、要不要有孩子，每一个选择都影响深远，而不同的选择也必定造就完全不一样的人生。你又说，生命中不可承受之情，就在于人生没有重来的机会啊。如果当初如何如何，现在就不会怎样怎样...这种充满怅然的喃喃自语，还是别再多说了吧。每一个岔口的选择其实没有真正的好与坏，只要把人生看成是自己。独一无二的创作，就不会频频回首如果当初做了不一样的选择。

* 努力吧 不管成功与否 至少曾经美丽
漫步林间，你看见一株藤蔓附着树干，柔软与坚实相互交缠，你感动于这静美的一幕。让幸福与归属就此驻足吧。你想。不知未来会有怎样一番风雨摧折？也许藤将断、树会倒，也许天会荒，地将老。你又想。那么，请时光停格在此刻吧。停格即是永恒。永恒里若有这静美的一刻，未来可能遭遇的种种劫难，便已得到了安慰与报偿。

* 保持单纯
因为思虑过多，所以你常常把你的人生复杂化了。明明是活在现在，你却总是念念不忘着过去，又忧心忡忡着未来；坚持携带着过去、未来与现在同行，你的人生当然只有一片拖泥带水。而单纯是一种恩宠状态。单纯地以皮肤感受天气的变化，单纯地以鼻腔品尝雨后的青草香，单纯地以眼睛统摄远山近景如一幅画。单纯地活在当下。而当下其实无所谓是非真假。既然没有是非，就不必思虑；没有真假，就无须念念不忘又忧心忡忡。无是非真假，不就像在做梦一样了吗?是呀，就单纯地把你的人生当成梦境去执行吧。

* 偶尔"俗气"...
吃多了健康食品，偶尔你也想啃一啃鸭舌头和盐酥鸡。看多了大师名剧，偶尔你也想瞄一瞄耳光摔不完眼泪掉不完的连续剧。听多了古典音乐，偶尔你也想唱一唱爱他一百年又恨他一他一万年的流行歌曲。你知道健康食品对健胃整肠有意义，大师名剧对培养气质有意义，古典音乐对提升性灵有意义，可是，偶尔你其实并不想让自己时时刻刻活得那么有意。人生不需要把自己绑得那么紧。偶尔的小小放纵，是道德的。灵气充满或许接近大人，但偶尔的俗气会更平易近人。

* 控制情绪 别浪费了~
今天的你，是不开心的你，因为有人在言语间刺伤了你。你不喜欢吵架，所以你离开；可是你只是离开了那，却没有离开被那人伤害的情境，因此你愈想愈生气。愈有气，你就愈没有力气去理会别的事情，许多更该用心去做去想去处理的事件，就在你漫天漫地的心烦意乱之中，被轻忽被漠视被省略了。因为，你只是一心一意地在生气。在情绪上做文章，这是对自己的浪费，而且是很坏的浪费。毕竟，生气也是要花力气的，而且生气一定伤元气。所以，聪明如你，别让情绪控制了你，当你又要生气之前，不妨轻声地提醒自己一句：“别浪费了。”

* 抓住最好的时机 绝不错过
你曾经买了一件很喜欢的衣裳却舍不得穿，郑重地供奉在衣柜里；许久之后，当你再看见它的时候，却发现它已经过时了。所以，你就这样与它错过了。你也曾经买了一块漂亮的蛋糕却舍不得吃，郑重地供奉在冰箱里；许久之后，当你再看见它的时候，却发现它已经过期了。所以，你也这样与它错过了。没有在最喜欢的时候上身的衣裳，没有在最可口的时候品尝的蛋糕，就像没有在最想做的时候去做的事情，都是遗憾。生命也有保存期限，想做的事该趁早去做。如果你只是把你的心愿郑重地供奉在心里，却未曾去实行，那么唯一的结果，就是与它错过，一如那件过时的衣裳，一如那块过期的蛋糕。

* 偶尔的出离轨道
某次你搭火车打算到A地去，中途却忽然临时起意在B地下了车。也许是别致的地名吸引了你，也许是偶然一瞥的风景触动了你，总之，你就这样改变了本来预定的行程，然后经历了一场充满惊奇的意外旅行。A地是你原先的目标，B地却让你体会了小小的冒险。回忆起来，你说，那是一次令你难忘的出轨经验。生命中的许多时候不也如此？心无旁骛地奔赴唯一的目的，不过是履行了原本的行程而已；离开预设的轨道，你才有机会发现其他的风景。

* 悄悄 悄悄地 回归平静..
曾经有一段时间，你心情低落，甚至懒得拉开窗帘，看着窗外的阳光。因此你当然也忘了去看看，窗台上那一盆每天都需要喝水的玛格丽特。如此不知过了多久，总算有一天，你度过了心情的低潮，同时也想起了你的玛格丽特。天啊，可怜的花，她还活着吗？你战战兢兢地拉开窗帘，却见她迎风招摇，花颜可掬。原来在过去的这段日子里，你虽然忘了喂她喝水，老天却没忘了以雨露眷顾她呢。许多事物悄悄地在你的视线之外进行，而且悄悄地安排好了它们自己。天生万物，天养万物，一切其实无须担心......你只要做的就是做好自己，不留任何遗憾...足矣

April fool…..A big JOKE~

What do remind you of April Fool?
1st April? Trick? Play around people? Joke?

ya.....joke.....it's really a HUGE JOKE for me ~it's like playing roller coaster with up and down feeling................

thanx to ahWong....it's u the one who teach me to be more careful with my properties along wherever i go in future.....'Lei Hou Yeh~~'....

seems it's April Fool~and with the cant-be-mad and cant-be-angry rule, just accept the 'Joke' with my 'generous' heart with some fractious content inside......

FoRg iVe and..........NEVER foRgeT~

疲倦啊~

该死的电脑程式，
折磨了我3天3夜没好觉睡。。。。
望着眼前的电脑荧幕，一大堆那些既熟悉的ABC但又看不懂它意思，发呆了半个钟，再多十分钟就4点凌晨了，还找不出问题到底出错在哪。。。。。
%%$@%$@^%^&&*@##%!!!!
算了，还是去睡一下吧，小黄和主人快累垮了。。。。。

2小时半后。。。。

起床了+-+。。。带着沉重的心情和浮肿的眼袋，又要上课去。。。。咳。。。

到了课室，才被通知Oop assignment 下个星期三交，本来这个星期四要考的数学Final也退去下个星期一。。。不知该觉得庆幸还是该骂人。。。白忙~！自找辛苦~！害我独自这几天都在忙assignment要生要死，今天才懂下个星期交，它妈的%$#&^@!!!

算了，今天终算可以早点睡了。。。不然哪怕哪一天那双眼袋快把我的双眼给淹没掉了~
累累累~

ojii......pala~

my brain becomes rusted~

my body has grow thousand of lazy worms~

LAZY to do anything~

so lazy to care wateva happens around me now~

sien arrrr....................................................................

“对不起”~

电话握在手中，

心中挣扎了数个钟，

想着该不该传个简讯给他，

“不要，传了就代表我投降，不行！”心里却不断对自己说……

看了两集的电视剧，再看了3部影片，可都只看了数分钟就关掉，无法专心地看下去……

终于，固执的她，被罪恶感打败，放下了超强的自尊心，

拿了电话，传了个简讯，跟他说了个道歉……

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就这样，短短的几封简讯对话，化解两人的不愉快…

可这也加倍了她之前的罪恶感，罪恶的心情，快把她压得喘不过气……

只怪她自己，一时的不冷静和暴躁所换来的不愉快……

“对不起”~

Celaka~!

Bad mood bad mood………
Well, since I’m so ‘soi’ these few days, blogging is the best way I release my anger and distress instead of keep it inside my heart n cos internal injury in future.

Im sure I will be the victim of Alzheimer in future, becos of my malfunction of my nerves n brain……my memory is getting worse recently, owes forgt this and that, take the bag n forgt my hp, take my hp forgt my wallet, maybe one day later I might forgt to wear pants n leave house like that…..

I can easily left my hp n hostel door key on the table at hostel which I just hold them in my hand a minute ago and went to school like that. It was happened yesterday, when back from school ard 4.45pm, I can’t enter my house without the key cos the door had been locked, I forced to went to the HEP office to get the spare keys from a staff there, who is a bxtch woman staff with her face as busuk as the a tone of 2 years accumulated rubbishes, fxcking damn unkindness no matter her way of talking or looking…..i wonder how the other staffs can work together with her……after got the keys and entered my hostel house finally, I rushed bec to the office to return the key before the office closed at 5pm, cos if I return it on the next day, I need to pay extra rm1 for it, and it’s not worth for me to do so since I’m so unsatisfied the way the bxtch treat me…sori la…

The next day, the bad luck god hasn’t leave me yet….i went to citymall with Amanda, Dalton and Graham for our lunch and shop for my course mate-Lee Fen birthday present. We bought a cloth for her, when doing payment, I just realized that my wallet only left a piece of RM50, which I remember I had take out RM 200 a day be4, now only left RM50, where the other RM 150??? I tried recall bec what I had done after went to ATM………………………………………….


~~~recall~~~
After take out the money from CiMB bank, I went to PPiB to meet my Japanese lecturer concerning my replacement class, and then to library for 2-3hrs, I never left out my bag during the time, so the $$ still along with me….ok lets c after that, after library, I went bec hostel, and went to HEP office for the spare keys, then entered my hostel house, put off my bag and jacket, took my hp and the keys and rushed bec to the office….hmm?...Wait…was the $$ being stolen at this time? Well, I think of hundreds of times, the probability of my $$ stolen during the time I went to office to return the key is 90%, becos after that I never went out to anywhere till the next day to skul and citymall, and I never take out my wallet from my bag too till I went to citymall….Alrite, the next part which more excited was, I had locked the door when I went to office, so that’s mean from the 90% of probability, it is 100% that the person/ ghost who stole my $$ was inside my hostel! That’s mean is my house mate! (my roommate hasn’t beck yet that day, and I just realized they all inside their room while I was seeking help from somebody to help me open door, holly shit$#%##!@^*) Well, it’s my 2nd time my $$ being stolen at hostel, the 1st time oso occurred when I was in hostel during last semester which I thought is my mistaken seem its only RM50….

Argh……it’s remind me the article about the zodiac fortune for 2009, it has mentioned that Dragon year is not good in wealth in this Ox year…zzzz….before this lose my umbrella, now lose $$, nt sure it’s just a coincidence or im the unlucky person among them, argh…….now it’s no use for me to think who is the bxtch thief that stole my $$, since I have no any evidence or CCTV inside the hostel, just blame myself for being so careless everytime, so just treat it as a lesson for me to be more careful on take care of my properties no matter where I am from now…..

不见了....

最近的天气呀，就好像女生穿衣服一样，变化多端。
前天连续下了两天长命雨，今天太阳猛烈的照大地，热得快中暑，明天就刮起大风，把头发吹得乱七八糟……

雨伞拍卖会~

对了，就是这里（图书馆のlocker room)，我的雨伞被不知哪个王八蛋偷去了，臭鸡蛋，没道德，无耻，下奸，如果让我知道哪个王八蛋干的好事，就拿着雨伞追着你打…………

气死了…!!

Tired......

3 weeks already since UMS started its brand new semester in 2009....but....damn messy yet stupid system of its registeration still havnt recovered yet...and we all still like headless houseflies, fly to the here and ther just to make sure we can get in the class which we demand but cant get it cos of the stupid system....really uncomfortable for us to study during these weeks.....

Today when open my student info system, OMG~my Hubungan Etnik course has disappeared from my system~! wat a BULL SHIT #@%#!@!@%*))&^%!!!!! not only me, my coursemates and other frens oso encounter the same situation, some even worse, all his registered PPIB subjects has been grown feet and run away from his system~!! for your information, it's quite important for a student to make sure all his/her subjects for a particular semester has been registered into the system to make sure he/she qualify to sit for the final exam.

Now what we can do, just keep running to PPiB building everyday just to get any update news from the lecturer.....ZZzzzzz.........

HapPy nEw YeAr 2009~!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009~!!!

My wish list for 2009 :
1. Get a better pointer for new semester.
2. Get a brand new car.(Then no need to walk under the big n hot sun at the damn large uni, exhausted u knw sometimes)
3. Be happier.
4. Be smarter.
5. Be healthier.
6. Be slimmer~.
7. Can gather with all my form6 friends one day, so miss them.
8. My all family members can stay happy n healthy.
9. Hair grow longer fast fast.
10. Get more more $$$.
11. My house can finish up being renovated.
12. Can have my own bedroom.
13. All the bad lucks stay away from me.
14. All the annoying person can stay away from me.
15. Stop receiving weird sms from strangers.
16. Grow taller.
17. Be stronger n tougher.
18. Have more time in a day....to sleep....ZZzzzzzzzz.....
19. He can stay healthy n happy all the times.
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2009. World Peace.